First

Hmmmm, obviously i'm procrastinating, why else would i be blogging if i weren't.

Since i'm feeling a bit romantic now after spending the whole day yesterday reading the manga Emma.

Today i've decided to blog about my love life more specifically my first love.

 

My First  crush and girlfriend * drum roll please* ......

"= censored ="

 

ok ok, i don't think i should write her name her to protect her from the embarrassment of once being  my girlfriend LOL.

let me recall what i can about her,

 

I  met her for the first time during form 1.

There i was  I was spacing out in front of my class ( in wisma allsaints )before class on the very first day of school ( i guess i was thinking about my future =P or emo-ing ... wadeva la.).

when suddenly i felt a tap on my shoulder, i was snapped back to reality and turned around wanting to see who it was since i don't really have alot of friends yet and you know la 1st day of school, all anxious and all that stuff.

 

 

OMG

 

 

I thought i must have fallen from the 3rd /2nd floor of the wisma ( not sure which floor edi ) and died because i saw such a pretty face

you know when people say time slows down when stuff like this happens? i swear it happened to me that day.

I must have looked stupid that time because i heard she say something and it took me awhile to realize that she was speaking chinese to me.

(too mesmerize liao and yup i know i'm banana,)

 

so i told her that i couldn't understand what she was saying and to my horror she and her friend giggled ( yeah she was with another girl and yeah a girl's giggle is scary because it's such a mystery)

she must have seen my worried expression and went on to explain that she was asking me whether i would be joining the chinese classes.

......At that moment i wished i wasn't a banana anymore and wanted to join her LOL.

 

In the end class was about to start so i had to go.

I wished i could be in the same class as her as i walked into the assigned class.

After a few minutes though, someone came in and joined the class.

 

 

OMG

 

 

It was her and her friend . WOO HOO!!!!!!

(to be continued)

(edit) ps: no inspiration for now

random-ness

i need an easier way to upload my pictures...

now that i have my k850i with it's 5 megapixel camera. i've been taking alot of pictures. but sometime's it's too troublesome to post it up.

gosh, mid years are also coming up soon. got to get ready to kick some ass. working hard so i can pwned them. wakaka.

ps: Happy Mother's Day, love you mum.

11 Days

What a tiring 11days.
I've been too busy/stress/angry/emo/sad/plain lazy to post something up here.
so here i am, procrastinating from doing my homework which probably is due tomorrow (i don't remember) or somewhere along this week

 

Lots of stuff happened since i last posted. Let me try and recall what did i do for the past 11 days

Not in any chronically ordered.(i'll type as i remember it)

• www.read2children.blogspot.com
  • As usual , I went for the project on Saturday (1/03/08), read more about it at the project's blog, one highlight for that day was that i was able to wake up early (and not delay transport for the whole team) but it rained cats and dogs that morning. I was soaked (even though i had an umbrella) when i walked to college to wait for the van. Me and Hani (my lovely partner)  planned something really special for that session but we had to postpone it because of the rain.
  • Today's session was ok i guess. Less kids came because of the rain while most of them were a bit late.
  • That session I was guiding Shin Chan  while Hani took care of Fatiha and Hasna. Seema and Hanifa didn't showed up today.Shin Chan opened up abit more to me today, I'm quite happy about it. He gave me a salam before he left, something he never did before.Fatiha on the other hand kept playfully teasing me and it hurt a bit since i already have low self-esteem (OMG the pain). all i did was playfully ignored her. i plan to ignore her smart remarks from now on and let Hani asks her to stop it (Mr.Yong's idea)
  • All in all it was a good session, even though it rained but it didn't really affect us that much.
    • * ~~rain rain go away~~ *

 

• FCC

  • I went to FCC on Saturday as well(finally),I didn't went to church for the 2 months since December holidays ended but finally now i went.
  • the church moved to a new building, good news it that it's now closer in terms of displacement but in terms of distance (taxi $$) it's further. Plus i don't know where to tell the cab driver to go the next time I'm going
  • I didn't really had a good time there because of something that I will write about in the next topic

 

• (I don't know how to describe this next topic*)
• 1st this starts after the read2children and before i went FCC.
• I was just lazing around friendster when i saw someone's comment on another someone's profile page. so i decided to follow up on the comment and after abit of digging, i found some pictures.
• Let's say the pictures were beautiful yet painful at the same time. It was the proof of an end and also a new beginning.
• It kind of hurt, yet i was happy at the same time.My emotions were a bit mixed up. I didn't know how i felt or what i was suppose to feel about the pictures.
• I can't say much detail here, because it's a bit personal and private and confidential.
• It's safe to say,i'll survive, i have to, because life will go on, so i'll try not to be left behind grieving. I Wish us all the best in life.

I'll post more later, I want sleep now.

2 strikes out of 3

I'm so exhausted now, look at the time, spent the whole early morning doing laundry.
so let's do this systematically while im still sane.

1st, Valentine's has passed, she got the flowers.
What an akward moment i may say when i met her in the library after class.
I was still trying to find out at that time if she knew it was me(acted like nothing happened), because i didn't sign the card and i had the florist deliver the flowers to her class. Then her roommate came along and teasingly asked me what I did this Valentine's Day, so i was 100% sure by that time that they knew =.='''''.

I do have some regrets for Valentine's, 1st i wish i could have done better, maybe wrote a better card, be more romantic etc etc. The thing i regret the most was not asking her out(OMG!!!!) . I thought she had already made plans for the day. (an outing with friends especially"the" someone she likes), so i didn't want to ruin her nice outing.
I realised too late , that i should have at least tried to ask her, That's something i learnt during Valentine's.

2nd, the day after valentine's i promised my house mates , i would cook them a nice home cooked pasta dinner.I even asked 1 of my fellow Petronas scholar to come and some of my house mate's friend came as well. Little did i know what i was getting myself into. Sad to say the dinner didn't turned out well, because my usual technique of cooking for myself was not applicable when cooking for 10 people (including me)

there was problem after another while i was "cooking" and dinner was delayed for an hour, we served the best of the dishes to the girls 1st. Thanks to my house mates from salvaging the dinner!! and sorry to the girls (guest) who came for what happened, it won't happen again because i'll never cook for more then 2 or 3 people from now on.

so the previous two events were the 2 strikes, while on saturday, it was the 1st session for the reading project i joined. Here's a link: www.read2childen.blogspot.com
we'll soon have a facebook group up and some other things.
goal of the project is to teach or improve the english reading standard of children from the age of 7-12 in Sentul, an area in KL which from i heard isn't a well to do area.

it was a fun time to spend time with kids, knowing each of them have tremendous potential and you are playing a part in teaching them how to be the best they can be in the future.
I won't go into detail here, there'll soon be more post up at the project's blog and at the facebook group. needless to say, i hope we can really make a difference in these children's life.

so that's it for now. its 6 am Sunday, I didn't sleep at all after coming back from the reading project . been doing laundry for the past 4 hours. ( i dun mix colours, afraid they'll stain each other). I'm going to get some rest 1st and later spend the whole day trying to study for the specialist maths test on Monday. It'll be 10% of my internal assessment for my program , which amounts to 5% of my final results.

till next time.