TIred

Too tired. sleep 1st, study later, and then blog.

2 strikes out of 3

I'm so exhausted now, look at the time, spent the whole early morning doing laundry.
so let's do this systematically while im still sane.

1st, Valentine's has passed, she got the flowers.
What an akward moment i may say when i met her in the library after class.
I was still trying to find out at that time if she knew it was me(acted like nothing happened), because i didn't sign the card and i had the florist deliver the flowers to her class. Then her roommate came along and teasingly asked me what I did this Valentine's Day, so i was 100% sure by that time that they knew =.='''''.

I do have some regrets for Valentine's, 1st i wish i could have done better, maybe wrote a better card, be more romantic etc etc. The thing i regret the most was not asking her out(OMG!!!!) . I thought she had already made plans for the day. (an outing with friends especially"the" someone she likes), so i didn't want to ruin her nice outing.
I realised too late , that i should have at least tried to ask her, That's something i learnt during Valentine's.

2nd, the day after valentine's i promised my house mates , i would cook them a nice home cooked pasta dinner.I even asked 1 of my fellow Petronas scholar to come and some of my house mate's friend came as well. Little did i know what i was getting myself into. Sad to say the dinner didn't turned out well, because my usual technique of cooking for myself was not applicable when cooking for 10 people (including me)

there was problem after another while i was "cooking" and dinner was delayed for an hour, we served the best of the dishes to the girls 1st. Thanks to my house mates from salvaging the dinner!! and sorry to the girls (guest) who came for what happened, it won't happen again because i'll never cook for more then 2 or 3 people from now on.

so the previous two events were the 2 strikes, while on saturday, it was the 1st session for the reading project i joined. Here's a link: www.read2childen.blogspot.com
we'll soon have a facebook group up and some other things.
goal of the project is to teach or improve the english reading standard of children from the age of 7-12 in Sentul, an area in KL which from i heard isn't a well to do area.

it was a fun time to spend time with kids, knowing each of them have tremendous potential and you are playing a part in teaching them how to be the best they can be in the future.
I won't go into detail here, there'll soon be more post up at the project's blog and at the facebook group. needless to say, i hope we can really make a difference in these children's life.

so that's it for now. its 6 am Sunday, I didn't sleep at all after coming back from the reading project . been doing laundry for the past 4 hours. ( i dun mix colours, afraid they'll stain each other). I'm going to get some rest 1st and later spend the whole day trying to study for the specialist maths test on Monday. It'll be 10% of my internal assessment for my program , which amounts to 5% of my final results.

till next time.

random

so close yet so far

Another Blog

since i have an account for www.read2children.blogspot.com
might as well make a new blog here.'
i vow to update this blog at least once a week.
may post more when i'm in a bad mood or just whenever i procrastinating.

this morning i didnt sleep at all watching volume 2 of "Heroes" , awesome story and abilities and characters. I can't wait for Volume 3. I wish i had Hiro Nakamura's power of controlling space and time since i'm always late in the morning. plus the power to control time is kind of unbeatable.

it's almost feb 14th now.
Kinda have a love/hate relationship with Valentine's
love = chance for new beginning
hate = fail / watching other people succeed

i sent someone flowers this year
1st time ever have i sent flowers to someone
Not sure whether it'll turn out alright.
even writing the card was hard.
i just hope she likes it and doesn't hate me

life's been pretty busy lately, tons of assignments, homework, test and presentation
plus i volunteered for read2children and the fact that i want to play online game.

currently playing Ran Online, but i think im going to quit soon, the reason why i play is to be closer friends with Jan, that feeling was from the time i liked her, but it seems she doesn't need me there since she has a Ran "Boyfriend" there, kinda makes me angry to see them.

all she does is show people her friendster profile (super cute girl in RL ) and tons of idiotic male who think by wooing her in game world, they'll get to woo her in real life.

i'm not going to play in a game with so many idiotic people

she enjoys perks beyond control, some people even give her free game points (which cost real money) for her to spend . I myself have to maintain a budget just to have barely enough points.
people give her valuable game items for free, she can always find a party to go leveling (necessary in high levels) while i'm always struggling to find one. I finally realized there's no use for me to keep playing when the only reason i play is non-existent .
*ps; i know im jealous*

from now on, when i play Ran , im going to play for myself at my own pace and not to bother about Jan or trying to catch up to her level anymore, she doesnt really need me.

*i'm always tempted to announce in the game that Jan is not single in real life, but im not evil, just curious what would happen, but because i'm considerate towards Jan, i'll let those idiot's fantasies stand for awhile*

by the way, downloading Perfect World now, going to play after i quit Ran.

I'm kind of in a bad mood now, i'll post more after i finish the rest of my homework tonight.
just realized that writing a blog like this is quite therapeutic for me because now i know where to vent out my feelings.