leinadoey

winter holiday

2010-06-18T08:19:00.002+08:00

Exams are over
I hope i'll be able to pass all , definitely will get into trouble if my result are bad.
Going back on the 24th at 0005 hours, it's complicated because I'm not sure it's called 24th midnight or the 23rd midnight? Been checking it constantly to remind myself so I don't forget and miss my flight.

Also my self bought birthday present came! well, I don't really celebrate my birthday but whatever. Purchased a Photobook, posters and their latest album. It's the least I could do for the 9 young ladies who always manage to cheer me up.

to end, let's just say "it" is finally over, I'm no longer affected seeing them together.

Love? is such a scary thing.

A piece of me

2010-05-24T20:54:00.001+08:00

dies inside every time i see them together.
I hope i get over this quickly before it hurts too much.

seriously?

2010-05-21T23:55:00.002+08:00

Im going back

there's nothing to do here

lepak? I don't like to lepak..
(with you)

why the fuck?
because you just ruined my night.

TAEYANG (SOL from BIGBANG) - WEDDING DRESS

2010-05-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

Sprained knee

2010-05-17T00:32:00.002+08:00

Ouch
I heard 3 bone crushing pops as I misstep into an uneven patch of ground during soccer on Friday. (stupid Wilsmore field)

Fell down shouting and rolling like a baby. Damn, it hurt.
Limped all the way back home because the mosquitoes were starting to suck me dry as the day ended.

Spent most of the weekend by self treating myself with some physiotherapy on the net.
Credits to house mate for anti swelling pills.

recovery currently at 80%? I still can't bend my knee fully but at least I've regained enough mobility to walk and not limp.

Hopefully there won't be any permanent side effects on the knee due to this accident.

protip 1: properly warm up before sports especially during cold weather.
protip 2: don't push yourself too hard on a bad pitch

well, at least I scored a goal before the injury.\

protip 3: physical pain makes you forget emotional pain and is easier to heal. :D
protip 4: Don't cry like a baby in front of your friends.

wtf

2010-05-13T14:10:00.000+08:00

haizzzzz
emoooo

It physically hurts.

2010-05-06T00:36:00.002+08:00

I swear i'll never tell you how you unintentionally broke my heart because you never knew you had it in the first place.
Promise me that you'll be happy.

it's hard

2010-05-04T01:11:00.002+08:00

I tell myself that i shouldn't be sad because the car only fits 5 people and I'm the 7th person. fuck.
this is why I've been getting the urge to get a scooter.

Heart?

2010-04-24T07:47:00.002+08:00

It seem I only come here only when i'm depressed.
more specifically whenever i get my heart broken.
damn.

Is it?

2009-12-22T02:05:00.002+08:00

Am I abandoning this blog?
maybe temporarily.
my life is boring,so there's not much to blog about.

Substitute

2009-09-14T19:48:00.001+08:00

time
money
love

another dream.

2009-08-29T22:31:00.002+08:00

It all happened so suddenly.
your warmth next to me
holding on together
you kissed me
and i woke up before i could tell you.

Sick

2009-07-19T21:21:00.001+08:00

I rarely fall sick but when i do , i fall hard.
looks like there'll be a storm tonight
waiting.

Holidays are over

2009-07-16T20:27:00.002+08:00

Really looking forward to getting busy and trying harder for the next semester.

First semester is over

2009-07-04T18:54:00.002+08:00

GENG1001 = Cr
GENG1002 = D
MATH1020 = P
PHYS1101 = Cr

All this emotions

2009-06-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

holding it and keeping them in cannot be good for?
What if i break?

So many variables, so many choices.
It aches to think about it all.
but at the end of the day,
we have to live on. no matter what choices we made.

Happy?

2009-06-20T09:45:00.002+08:00

Run away from your problems and forget them

OR

Confront it and get it fixed.

holidays

2009-06-18T01:03:00.001+08:00

doesn't seem as fun nowadays.
i'm not sure if i'm even excited .

Wished upon a shooting star

2009-06-16T23:00:00.003+08:00

Thank God, happened to see it one COLD night
yet it seems my wish is backfiring.
on the plus side I'm going home but i myself am not really sure why.

Exams.

2009-06-09T17:18:00.000+08:00

wtf.
sad but happy.
I wish i can do that.

566359

2009-06-04T20:55:00.001+08:00

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Lost my blog list

2009-06-03T19:33:00.002+08:00

Leave ur blog link please. thanks.
post it on the comment or msn me or something.

Maybe I'll tell

2009-06-03T18:44:00.000+08:00

just before i leave, at the airport.

For all problem

2009-06-02T23:23:00.002+08:00

Google first

Would I ever

2009-05-31T03:23:00.002+08:00

Maybe one day, you'll figure it out.
maybe one day, i'll decide to break
It's so intoxicating
This feeling I felt
Would I ever get to tell you how i feel.

but it seems you're so far away
Always out of reach.

Maybe it's best you never know,
it doesn't really matter because nothing would even change
so would I ever?

ps: Hope you're always happy.

I was wondering...

2009-05-26T09:11:00.000+08:00

Do you realise?

Shouldn't but still

2009-05-22T18:23:00.001+08:00

Eat too much
sleep too much
play too much
trust and love

Exams are nearing

2009-05-20T19:40:00.002+08:00

but I can't seem to study.

Feel so lonely wtf.
need a PROPER MEANINGFUL CONVERSATION!

ps. Anyone know a good way to talk to girls?

Close your eyes

2009-05-17T10:50:00.002+08:00

ignore everyone except for a single person
and dance.

I wish i could.

ps. need to study for exams in 2 weeks.
pps. A girl grabbed my ass and i dreamt she rated it 3 / 10 wtf.

I AM GOING TO FAIL MY EXAMS.

2009-05-10T20:30:00.001+08:00

gta 4 or halo 3?
freaking mahal games here la.

Guys don't cry?

2009-05-08T13:02:00.000+08:00

How important is luck and fate?

2009-05-07T04:59:00.002+08:00

How important is it?
Which scenario would be better?

Since luck/fate is out of our control, Does that make luck/fate the most important thing or is it then the most neglible factor in doing something.

A lucky man might strike it rich through lottery, but he could end up poor through mismanagement of his financial assets.

A Hardworking man could work himself from the ground up into power and fortune, only to end up in bankruptcy due to external factors.

So which is really important? the uncontrollable or the controllable?

I believe both are.

Distance

2009-05-07T02:19:00.002+08:00

Forgetting someone is always easier when you are far away and not in contact.
Damn it's hard.
Sorry if I've been distant, it's just my way of easing the hurt.

Honey,My Sarah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2009-05-07T02:10:00.001+08:00

Thanks for always being there.
Nanti Tomorrow, we color coordinate again for class. hahaha

I want to be.

2009-05-05T19:20:00.001+08:00

A guy you can fall in love with during a masquerade ball before you realise who i really am.
NEED A MASSIVE MAKEOVER.

Another realisation

2009-05-05T08:16:00.002+08:00

I like the cold, but maybe it's just me getting used to it.
maybe one day.

3/10

2009-05-04T22:29:00.001+08:00

Feel so stupid

Love is gone, Tomorrow can wait by David Guetta & Chris Willis

2009-05-02T19:37:00.001+08:00

These few days.

2009-05-01T14:45:00.002+08:00

The nights are cold
Can't stop feeling
Can't stop thinking
Can't stop caring
Can't stop living
Can't stop this insomnia
but the love is gone
and that's why i run.

Forever?

2009-04-17T18:47:00.000+08:00

Should I forget her and look for someone new?

UPDATES

2009-04-12T01:24:00.001+08:00

Finally Yeah!! I haven't been blogging in months. Was too busy / lazy / lacked internet access since the last time i blogged. which was a couple of months ago.

Hmmmm, trying to remember what had happened since the last time i wrote a post.

Obviously, I've finally gotten internet access. Sad to say , I thought having internet will alleviate my constant bored status but apparently it doesn't.

Classes have started and I'm still not in the mood to study. University life is hard.

I lost 1 kg in the 2 months I'm here ( which is bad since i lost more weight in KL in the same time frame)

My wallet is feeling the pinch every single day. Food here is pretty expensive when u eat outside, the owners must be making like 300-500% profit.( no wonder Chinese people like to migrate here)

I feel like working part time (during 2nd sem) for some extra money and since I want to be more independent.

Although I have my room, it's still doesn't feel like home since it's still lacking some furniture. (note to self: get a router so my room is not laptop room anymore)

It has come to my attention of some pretty girls who share lectures with me which further deteriorates my already poor ability to concentrate during classes (#1, Avril , Princess, Tut girl, Taylor's girl etc )

I have no a lousy social life here . (OMG WTF need to make more friends)

Managed to reach quarter finals for a 6 on 6 football tournament at Curtin ( Aussies call it soccer )

It's Easter weekend and I'm not doing anything (How sad)

Did I mention? Lectures are hard

I can't play my Malaysian online games since it still lags (I CANT STAND LAG EVEN THOUGH ITS ONLY 700ms)even though I'm on an adsl2+ line .

Also, for the first time ever, I got really tipsy but I don't think I was drunk. (Discovered that I prefer Whiskey straight, no mixing for me please thank you)

I need to get myself a kick ass PC AND a laptop/Macbook. And don't forget, a PS3 , XBOX360 and a PSP. Yes I know i'm a game freak. and yes , I'm broke so gotta wait until I start working part-time.

Not to mention, I haven't had my house warming party yet. Guess I should throw the party before it's too cold to use the pool.

My hair is long because I haven't had it cut since being here.

When I cook, I'm not sure the food is actually properly cooked. EXCEPT when i cook pasta dishes.

I hate my Nokia e71, guess I’m a SE fan after all. What a waste of $69 post paid a month, I barely used a third the last month =.= so please excuse me if I call you for no reason other than to make me feel it’s worth it, Just layan la ok?

OK OK now before i ramble pessimistically more( I’m sure there’s more to ramble about),

Have some pictures!!!! (yeah I know i haven’t taken alot of pics, most pics of outings and trips are with Paan/Que/Hani etc)

Will post other pics on FB

Ok Ok, Thanks alot to Paan, 2nd guy from the left. Thank you for putting up with our bullshit and showing us around and stuff even though having graduated and not obliged to help us juniors. Hope we’ll meet again in the Twin towers

Cheers and till next time.

Oh ya, I’m going back Malaysia for winter break, 3rd week of June till 3rd week of July. Still need to do some stuff back home. Sorry dear for not stopping over at KL before transit to KK, Flight through Brunei this time. I miss you too XD.

New House

2009-02-25T20:43:00.002+08:00

please visit my facebook album for pics.

Am i cruel?

2009-02-21T23:52:00.005+08:00

Am i cruel?

I dont want a housemate who :
1. is so dependant on other's (when he has no right to do so)
2. Is too weird
3. Takes for granted the senior P. scholar who helped him even though he isnt a P. scholar
4. Says '' No chicken?'' when seniors cook plain porridge for him while he was sick.
5. Never asks how much the food costs and reimburse the senior who bought food for him.
6. doesnt look for his own accommodation but helping some girls to settle theirs while freeloading at seniors place
7. who ''cant'' even do anything while sick (eat, help around the house, look for personal accomm instead of freeloading at other's house)
8. Expect me to take him in as a housemate just like that because his own J? scholar peers abandoned him while looking for a house.
9. Doesn't trust people , thinking we're all out to con you.
10. 8lames him falling asick for not being to look for house
11. Etc

We offered you 400$ per month rent for a room in a house less than 5 min away from uni complete with a swimming pool. And you give us a look as if we're trying to con you. Don't ask us if you're not going to believe us wtf.

Let you know that the seniors have no obligation to help you, no matter J. or P. Scholars. Even I , dont feel comfortable staying temporarily at someone's house. So have some shame la. Who are you to expect P. SENIOR TO HELP YOU.

YOU'RE ALREADY 21 YEARS OLD FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
Help yourself.because not everyone will.

Ps. Im in Perth,Australia now. Sorry to those that didnt meet me b4 i left msia. Miss you all. Will blog more often now that im bored.

tagged

2008-11-21T01:16:00.004+08:00

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What do you want most for the time being??
love and wealth

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
having fun

3. What is your 1 regret in life?
I dont seize the day sometimes

4. Who inspires you?
people who are better than me

5. Tell me something I dont know about your family background.
my parents wanted a son, but got two daughters instead

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
NO! you can meh?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
my family

8. What do you feel like doing, right now?
thinking of some nice answers.

9. If you can get out of your current life circumstance, would you?
depends if I get out to a better or lousier life? but honestly, no.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
one. she's tall
two. she's pretty
three. she's one of my closest friend

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
she must love me and she must let me love her. average looking would do but she must look "beautiful" in my eyes

12. If you were given a choice, would you want to know what love is all about?
different people find different meaning of love. yes i'd want to know

13. What is your ambition?
I hope to be a petroleum engineer ( no choice )

14. Describe your life in one word.
complex

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick ?
rich

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
i want to be more confident and have better determination

17. Who is the person (people) that you can share all your problems with?
God

18. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
halfway through my contract

19. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
i 'm tall

20. What is your dream job?
owner of multiple successful business , restaurants etc and basically let money come rolling

and i tag..

no1 for now because i've locked this blog (for now)

feel free to tag yourself once you read this

I shouldn't but yet I still.

2008-10-28T19:54:00.002+08:00

when i'm with you, I'd do anything for you.

it's when i'm not with you that i'm worried.

I just want you to be happy but i don't want you to hurt yourself looking for superficial happiness

if he's your friend , i won't mind

but the fact that it could be some stranger makes me sad.

please promise me that you'll look for a better guy.

please don't compromise with lesser guys.

I don't want to see you hurt.

please look for someone who you really love and sincerely love you back.

I know it won't be me

but i still care. so please...

I'm sorry if i never tell you I love you before i leave.

Just know that I do and I DO want to tell you.

Picture time !!

2008-10-26T00:02:00.001+08:00

I like to draw on my table with pencils. save paper

Stalking with Yuvha.SzeMei and Sarah

target was SzeMei's "Lala" i forgot how to spell his real name LOL

he's the guy in the green shirt

Skating with Clara and En Shyang

I'm like addicted to TRACKMANIA!!!! ( since 2 weeks ago? )

bad news since final exams are like in a week

stats shows that i have lost approximately 24 hours playing this game (wasted?)

1. I'm ranked 40th/500 people in Msia

2. I'm ranked 110 000 ++ th / 1.6 million people in the WORLD

ps: Ranking will continue to improve after final exams XD

Introducing Ye-Wheen

He intro'd me to Avenged Sevenfold ( a damn nice rock band

)I know him through Kok Wooi

Damn pro guitarist as well.

Damn pro ninja in COD4 as well

and he's not as goodboy as he look in the picture here. LOL

cool guy.

And finally some random pictures before i end.

ps- hover over pic for my captions

done. END

pps: wtf I should be taking more pictures!!

forgotten case update..

2008-10-25T23:23:00.001+08:00

Case update 13/10/08

Yesterday, my housemate was shot at (although missed) but this time they comfirmed the shooter location and they call the guard to "raid" the house.

The guard entered the "nest" and found an air rifle

(modelled after AWSM (Arctic Warfare Super Magnum))

as well as pellets lying around the "nest" matching the one the victim found around the poolside

zzz i drafted this post and forgot all about it. lazy edi to write.

current update on this case -

1. he went to lockup

2. he got out of lockup

3. Supposed to get "disciplinary action" but i have yet to heard what happened to him.

4. I saw him a few times after the incident LOL. (wtf happened to disciplinary action?)

5. ZZZ i lazy to pursue this act for now. wait till after exam then i'll ask around again

ps : he - referring to the owner and self-admitting shooter

pps: I think he's just being noble taking all the blame since he's already fucked for having the air rifle, I'm sure some of his housemates were also responsible for some of the other shootings.

Hate to be held back

2008-10-25T01:40:00.002+08:00

stupid mouse

stupid keyboard

stupid pc

stupid laptop

stupid CC

I refuse to be held back by anything other than myself

I lose by MY mistake,not other's

I refuse to lose just because the mouse freeze up at the wrong time

I refuse to lose just because headphones went deaf when i'm suppose to listen for footsteps

I refuse to lose because the keyboard didn't register my button

I refuse to lose because of lousy teammates

but maybe, just maybe.

if i can win with all these crap holding me back.

Imagine what would happen if there was NOTHING TO HOLD ME BACK

The case of a (&$%(*%!@&) sniper

2008-10-12T00:32:00.004+08:00

Victim : Daniel Yeo

Suspect : Occupants of apartment complex around the scene ( poolside)

Weapon : Witness remember hearing compressed air before shots were fired , most probably Air gun

Ammunition : Standard (white) plastic pellet compatible with suspected Air gun

Time : 8 pm -8.30pm

Date : 11/10/2008

Victim was having a BBQ with housemates and some friends. As the victim was crouching poking around at the BBQ and as the victim stood up, he fell backwards clutching his right eye screaming in pain.

Witness rushed to the victim asking if he was alright. The Victim took a minute to recover back to his feet. At first everyone thought it was an ember from the bbq that went into the victim's eye. On further inspection of the victim's eye,

They notice that 1 cm (some say less) under his eye lid there was a pellet shaped bruise. It was concluded that Daniel have been another victim of a sniper living near the poolside, as his other friends have been shot at recently as well.

Victim proceeded to call the security guard of the apartment complex and even then the security guard got shot at albeit at the chest ( and not the EYE!! ). Agreeing it would be better to call the police. the police came but due to lack of a warrant or a proper pinpoint of the sniper's exact nest and were unable to act. Daniel then hitched a ride with the police car to the station to lodge a report ( 1st time lol ).

Victim didn't manage to eat the BBQ before the incident :(

Evidence

how close i was to being blind? (it's not pimple ok?)

searching around the scene (like csi lol) , we found 2 pellets.

we also found about 40 pellets in the pool itself later (somebody have been practising ei? )

Thanks to:

friends who help me (and for the BBQ)

security guard who came to investigate and got shot at lol

Police who gave me a lift to the station to lodge report

Police who took my report

The sniper who shot me ( thanks for the whole experience, you gave me a chance to ride in a police cruiser and make police report )

Apologies to innocent occupant of the apartment for all the shouting involved (didn't mean to disturb others ). XD

everyone else LOL

ps: If your the sniper and you see this, I salute your sniping skills ( although i think it's luck lol ), still you have that good luck can shoot me in the eye, come see me, i give you a present to celebrate.

pps: you so hebat lo, shoot the guard again but too bad you don't dare shoot the police. I dare you. lolx

Can't get in the Zone

2008-10-05T22:27:00.002+08:00

stupid people play with bots

stupid people play cheating map

AWP map ( ok )
no bots (ok)
Counter spawn facing backwards ( ok)
Terrorist spawn facing forwards (WTF?! imba)

stupid cyber cafe give me pc with no speaker ( wtf imba i can't hear where people shooting from )

stupid me - still noob until get affected by the above :(

Thoughts of Daniel

2008-09-30T00:48:00.003+08:00

start
wtf am i doing so late at night
ei? not so late pun. still ok ok. not like last time RAN for Janine 2 days straight.
hmmm why this guy so stupid wan do this thing.
writting whatever that goes through his head now.
damn, holidays so boring.
clean house pun tak bersih betul betul.
at least tomorrow go ridz see Jon and Cy
i wonder who Cy friend is
urgh, room is so cold, im sick, pipe leaking in toilet and mosquito eating buffet my leg.
hmmm, tomorrow i shall wake up early. Cabal awhile, then go ridz, lunch with Cy, meet Cy friend then go back Jon's and have marathon on Cabal.
i haven't thought about Victoria in a while, that's good i guess. (omg wtf i just did zzzz)
stupid runny nose make me sound weird.
i wonder what people think when they see i have painted nails. At least it brings good luck. totally beat Kok Wooi at pool hahaha, then owning at CS at the cyber. even knife one guy who was shouting throughout the game till i could hear him like 10 pc away.
can't get angry with him though. i also sometimes shout when losing. haha
hmmm everyone is human , so i dont deserve to judge
zzzz thoughts on her coming back. wtf.
maybe i should keep painted nails.
maybe i should stop this
better switch on song so i don't hear myself thinking.
end

Lonely Holidays again?

2008-09-28T22:35:00.003+08:00

trials are over!!

Hari Raya break is here!!

I'm also here!!

not going back hometown, tickets are wtf expensive.

staying in my hostel for this 10day holiday.

Housemate status:

Kok wooi is going to change unit
Jonathan go back,
Jing Neng go Singapore,
Vishnu and Glen went back Ipoh.

hence i am ALONE in this apartment.

bring me out people!!!

I love this Anti-Rejection Song

2008-09-17T22:41:00.002+08:00

Raffi Ahmad Feat. Ayushita

Jangan Bilang Tidak

[Raffi Ahmad:]
Ku penah punya cinta
Namun kini ku sedang suka kamu
Cinta ku dulu tlah ku buang jauh
Kini ku ingin kan mu

[Ayushita:]
Ku pernah menyendiri
Disini ku kan terasa sepi
Walaupun bibir penuh gelak tawa
Namun hati ku sepi

(chorus*)
Jangan bilang tidak
Bila kita belum mencoba
Sapa yang tahu akan sama
Hati mu dan juga hati ku
Banyak yang bercinta
Bertahun-tahun putus juga
Ku harapkan dengan dirimu
Walaupun singkat pendekatan
Cinta kita kan abadi

[Raffi Ahamad:]
Ku pernah punya cinta
Namun kini sedang suka kamu
Cinta ku dulu tlah ku buang jauh
Kini ku ingin kan kamu

(chorus*)

(chorus **)
Jangan bilang tidak waktu dicium aku bingung
Namun dada ini bergetar makanya sungguh

Aku mohon jangan bilang tidak

lyricsmode.com

The closing of the blog

2008-09-05T23:39:00.003+08:00

I've hurt 3 people with this blog . maybe more.

maybe i shouldn't keep this blog anymore, maybe i should keep it to myself.

maybe i should lock the blog, but that would be pointless as i have this blog to inform others about what i'm doing.

I hope all the pain i've caused can be deleted as easily as I can delete this blog but i know that can never be.

I'm sorry, I really am.

Do I look like a suspect??

2008-08-21T21:57:00.002+08:00

Was at cyber today for 3 hours.

the moment i sat down, 2 police officer came to me and asked for my IC

i was like wtf?? and asked why they want (while handing over my IC of course, must obey ma )

then they said , "takde ape le, cuma nak check"

then they went and wrote my details on some kind of report and asked me some questions

PO: "You study kat mana?",

DY: "taylors"

PO: "tinggal kat mana?" ,

DY: "My Place" (LOL , puns obviously unintended)

(PO with a confused look)

PO: "Dari mana?",

DY: "boleh Check at IC mah, saya dari Sabah" ,

PO: " Ooo, Sabah ba" (LOL LMAO , he made joke)

Then he went on to ask some other guys.

throughout the whole thing, i was thinking:

I'm gonna get arrested and lose my scholarship, WTF SO BAD LUCK!!

I think i asked him , what and why he was doing like 10 times to comfirm,

They said they were looking for suspects loose in kl, I was thinking wtf?

Do i look like a suspect? I'm so cute. hahaha jk jk

Long time no blog?

2008-08-12T21:37:00.002+08:00

summary ~

Went clubbing on friday , went with Clara and ohpa

Spent the weekend trying to study for the test but something happened till i can't study =.=''' wtf

Monday SpecMath test, i think i did quite well for this time

Tuesday Physics test, I'm screwed

and also ESL text production , got a mental block the moment i sat down to do it.

Damn busy - trying to work harder so i won't emo, wtf

New isn't always better

2008-08-05T05:52:00.002+08:00

wtf, i went to the toilet.

checked my phone, upper part of screen rosak. can't see a damm thing.

I think it dropped while i was sleeping.

~~fuck fuck fuck~~

~~drop abit screen rosak? zzzz~~

~~fuck~~

I hope the warranty is applicable in KL, if not i'm screwed.

Spend money again, zzzz i hate asking money from parents.

The bright side is , Thank God, my old phone still works. although calling does not work, at least i can sms and have a proper screen to look at.

And i realised i miss it.

BUT I WANT MY K850i!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~~FUCK~~

Amusing myself

2008-08-05T00:36:00.003+08:00

if no one ever calls / sms / msn / email / facebook / friendster you,

what would you do?

Sometimes, all those things are meaningless.

but sometimes, they aren't.

Damm emo-ing now.

Presentation in 10 hours.

Charity Carnival on wednesday,

NO TIME TO EMO!!! MUST GET WORK DONE!!!

Bad day?

2008-08-01T20:36:00.003+08:00

I knew it.

my dreams are omens .

I had a nightmare .

and today didn't turn out too well.

supposed to be revising chemistry

2008-07-29T00:35:00.001+08:00

Yuvha and me at Asia Cafe, Candid pic ok? , yuvha looks so shy-ish cute . hahaha

Jonathan posing for a shot to send to his girlfriend when we went for double movie on saturday.

Welcoming New Comers on a Sunday ==''''

I helped replaced Sze Mei (while she went to do a market survey and got herself RM40 * oi! belanja me!!) for welcoming the new scholars in the july 08 intake.

I personally volunteered to check out the batch of scholars to see what kind of people the sponsors have chosen as scholars

~~and to check out if got hot girls and guys~~

It's fun to see the people the sponsors have chosen this year.

Briefing by Riman of J4 and Faiz of J3 ~~that i was late for.~~

after briefing , me and jon went for breakfast since we both haven't eaten. and soon we went into the Multi Purpose Hall.

Went to the girl's side of the seating arrangement

(wtf ppl always auto segregate themselves on sitting arrangement based on sex?! ~~I prefer mixed sitting lo, what for scared of opposite sex oo?~~ )

Couldn't get a good look at the girls from behind so i dragged Jon to the gallery on top . hence...

Top View of the scholars. There are about 250 of them.

even though guys take more space than the girls ( due to guys don't like close contact with other guys )

I estimated there are more girls than guys.

Sad to say even with the wonderful position i was at to look at the girls. I couldn't get a good look due to my astigmatisme ( eyes have problem focusing ) ~~since i lost my glasses 3 months after buying them~~

Sad to say physically, I only saw a few girls who are hot,and slight more decent looking ones.

one point to say is while me and jon were up at the gallery, jon mentioned some interesting facts about the scholars.

1) one scholar was doing his work on his laptop during the talk and Jon go tegur him, the stupid junior go and marah jon, i'm suprised jon didn't kick his ass after that.

******* warning vulgarities approaching ******

~~SO LAN CI AH? F**Ker? , you think you scholar you geng meh?, we also scholar la , WE ARE YOUR SENIORS LA f**k.~~

I more geng than you OI, 6A1 ,3A2 and 1B3 can get petronas scholarship while you nerd away for your straight A for your scholarship MCB.your SPM results can go to hell la in college. SO HAI "A" eating student with lousy attitude.

****** end of vulgarities******

2) Apparently, there's already a couple in the scholar intake, jon told me he saw two scholars cuddling in college a few days before and he pointed out the couple. ~~guy is so lala like shit and so short while the girl damm trip she is pretty even though no body or face, quite lala oso.~~ well i guess, they are match each other in a weird way. ~~seeing what kind of people they seem to be~~ I give them 2 months before they break up LOL.

Damn fun looking down at the scholars and pointing out some of them while we were up there and making comments ~~regardless how loud or obvious we were.~~

After sightseeing and listening to Mr.Adnan's talk (he is head counsellor)

the juniors were divided into groups for discussions with seniors ( about 25 of my intake leading supposedly a group of 20 juniors each)

I was suppose to lead group 5, except that due to some randoming error, i didn't have a group.

so instead just join Jon's group la.

They asked, we answered.

We gave some pointers on how to survive and life in Subang.

All those crap la. mostly common sense stuff also. can't remember any of it now.

After our "discussion" , we ~~abandoned~~ left our group to some other seniors who have already studied overseas for them to share experiences of living abroad and went to cafeteria to waste time while we wait for lunch to be served.

Me and jon ate early, then we just waste time ~~babysitting~~ taking care of the juniors till they finished eating and went back to their luxurious hostel, Casa Subang. (bloody lucky of them)

Also got ride Hani's bicycle around campus awhile ~~like a kid gleefully smiling ,~~ since long time didn't naik bicycle liao.

Almost got hit by a car the moment i rode out of campus to yuvha's car. LOL ~~so malu if accident in front of juniors.~~

After that, we went back to our homes lor.

and yeah, they had lots of leftover nasi bungkus. muahahaha,

ps: i cut my hair during the double movie outing with jon,I'm not too fond of it. abit lala-ish ( zzz ) , I can't wait for it to grow back again so i can get it cut properly

Happy Birthday !!

2008-07-27T21:45:00.002+08:00

it's still 3 hours too early but...

Happy birthday to my sister!! Angela

don't paint my room pink while i'm in kl please.

actually i don't mind , just tell me which shade of pink 1st.

She's on the right , Natalie's on the left ( cousin ) . see the family resemblance?

Love you !!

la la la la la

Smoking is fun.

2008-07-25T00:45:00.003+08:00

smoking is fun,

ok I'm bullshiting. smoking is bad.

smokers usually are addicted but they at least know it's bad.

Another reason why i'll sue taylor's. Chair leg bent while i was busy doing work at home.

nasib my reflex so pro , i sempat avoid falling and sempat write my answer while i avoid again. LOL

Taufiq is back in his hometown recovering from dengue, so i was teamed up with Aisyam a.k.a dosey/syam and Alyn for our chem experiment.Today we made soap using alkaline hydrolysis. The soap itself felt like any other normal soap, but the smell was terrible. no wonder they scent their soap before selling it.

bored as usual. Orange was nice to eat btw.

my "art" on my table in class. thanks to boredom again for inspiring these.

i think i look good in these pics, purely because i wasn't trying to pose... hmmmm.

my pathetic attempts at taking a picture of a girl who i like to look at.

the left pic : she's the one behind the white coloured shirt girl.

right pic : hand got in the way and she's STILL behind the white colour shirt girl

The left pic : The closest pic i got of her. the one with the DRINK COVERING her FACE (WTF so bad luck me)

The right pic : she was in the class next to mine after break time and i tried to take a pic as i walked pass the class. she was JUST outside of view (WTF 1 degree miss..)

she was right behind this wall .( I WANT XRAY VISION!! LOL, coincidently we learnt about X-rays today)

and to end this post, a picture of a guy trying to commit suicide from outside my class window. (DURING CLASS)

my friends serabut after see him.

we were forced out of the class to let the bomba handle it.

by the time we got back, left the stairs only and they guy presumably resuced.

bull shitting only la, just like smoking is fun.

no one tried to commit suicide.

the man was just setting up new posters for Taylor's outside the window. LOL

fyi: i resize my pic smaller so not so lag and yes i know my layout sucks. will try to improve it when i'm free.

ps: I do not smoke. TEMPTED but i don't.

IDS = I Don't Study

2008-07-20T19:06:00.002+08:00

yeah , i know im suppose to be doing my IDS but im still procrastinating.

muaahaha. more pictures as usual

and yes i know my layout sucks at the moment but i'll wait till i'm free to fix it.

Damn MAJEED gave me this bill. RM9.4 for nasi campur? WTF so expensive today!!

usually 4-5 only.

Another thing that pisses me off, stupidity.

If you want to really catch those illegal immigrants , pilakz back in Sabah.

do please stop warning them a month in advance??

no common sense ka?

this place i walk pass everyday going back to my hostel is haunted. .

kidding la, even if it is . i'm not afraid of ghosts

( i think )

ah, Ridzuan condominium.

Stupid JPA sending most my friends here while i'm kind of lonely in MyPlace apartments.

funny how a hostel arrangement could cause so much problems for me in college.

went to Times Square yesterday to watch Dark Knight with Jonathan.

Too lazy/grown up to go on these rides

so instead me and jonathan after having McD for lunch

went to BORDERS. quite an awesome bookstore with tons of space and lots of amusing books.

we killed about 1 hour in BORDERS while waiting for the movie to start at 3.

after meeting some of jon's schoolmates. (Funny bunch they are, amused me endlessly)

we finally went in to the theater.

with a screen so freaking big , i couldn't take a full picture with it.

Alas, we finished the movie at around 5.50 and wanted to go bowling after that but it was so freaking full.

so we just chose to go back instead.

I hate public transport in KL, so freaking crowded all the time.

Summary

I should probably start on my IDS due in about 15 hours.

The movie was awesome. the late Heath Ledger acting as the joker was top class.

and i wish i have a shoe store named after me.

i'd make up some jokes to go with this picture but i'm too lazy .

and oya, i can't put a picture of Alyn i have because it shows the reason she's hot. LOL

Languages

2008-07-18T19:41:00.002+08:00

hari ini aku akan mencuba blogging dengan menggunakan bahasa malaysia.

sudah lebih 1 tahun aku tak menggunakan bahasa malaysia untuk menulis sesuatu walaupun emak ku seorang guru bahasa malaysia. aku tak suka menggunakan bahasa msia kerana kebolehan aku menggunakan bahasa ini amat terhad. Aku lebih suka berbahasa inggeris kerana aku lebih biasa dengannya kerana selalu menggunakan inggeris sewaktu sekolah menengah .

(Zzz feels so weird)

(zZz forgot the msian word i want to use )

(walao weh, i give up )

As you can see, my bm sux. i can only use it naturally when im with my friends or family.

the minute you ask me to speak it consciously, i won't be able to.

if you want to hear me speak bm, try eavesdropping when i'm on the phone with my family. LOL

0ne main reason why i think my bm sux is the lousy bm music scene in malaysia.

During high school, i usually heard english or indonesian songs as it was nice. hence i learn to speak english through songs.

If there were more quality bm music in malaysia , i for surely will improve in my bm from hearing all those nice songs. LOL

one more thing.

wo bu hui chang hwa yi.

(not written properly obviously)

it's suppose to mean "I don't speak chinese" in mandarin, i don't know how to write it in the romanized alphabets.

I have had to memorise this phrase since form 1 due to people mistaking i have the ability to speak chinese ( mandarin to be more precise ).

These few years since, i have been able to pick up some mandarin from my friends to be able to sometimes guess what other's are talking in mandarin. so ok abit la.

but since i've come to KL, the chinese people here speaks cantonese. which is wtf?

must be all those hong kong drama's affecting the chinese youth. zZzz. so now i'm stuck back at zero since i don't understand any cantonese at all even if it were vulgar words aimed at me.

I for one will not memorise " i dont speak cantonese" in cantonese.

one more thing about KL (im not sure if whole peninsular is like KL )

some chinese people here expect ALL chinese to be able to comunicate in at least mandarin among the dozens of chinese dialect here.

this is a pain in my fat ass since i DON'T speak chinese.

go in taxi , chinese driver speaks chinese to me, which obviously means where you want to go or something like that.

go shopping, chinese salesperson asks "how can i help you" in cantonese. if mandarin at least i understand abit la wtf.

go eat, tauke/waitress speaks chinese/cantonese.

meet new people. they speak chinese. zzZzz

meet friends, they speak chinese and i feel left out LOL , at least translate la. kasian me so alone dont understand.

now you know why it sometimes pisses me off. hopefully this wont happen in Australia.

To all who read this,

mind you that even though i am half chinese, i was never raised as a chinese or in chinese culture by my family. even if they did, they speak hokkien at home and not mandarin (obviously not cantonese as well.)

reasons for the non-chinese upbringing is probably because (proudly) of my mix heritage as well.

50% chinese

25% Kadazan ( Main aboriginal group of Sabah)

25% Jawa (indonesian)

heck, i wasn't raised as a chinese, as a kadazan or even as an indonesian.

guess I was raised as a MALAYSIAN. LOL (take the good and throw the bad of all customs i guess )

ALthough my mum ( half chinese , half jawa ) who married my dad ( half chinese, half kadazan) can speak some mandarin as she is teaching in a top private chinese school here in sabah ( muahahaha).

When she first came to msia after marrying my dad in Indonesia while studying together in Uni

(romantic right? This deserves another post another day )

she wasn't able to speak mandarin (obviously) so i guess my father's family tried not to use chinese so much while i was growing up.

love you mum!

I know i should and will probably adapt to mandarin/cantonese and learn some words . I also should say that those chinese people who are intraracist (racist among own race) towards chinese people who don't speak chinese should also adapt to english / malay as well. (heard of GLOBALISATION?)

I yearn for the day where Malaysians are so united that we can ALL speak at least 4 language fluently, ( BM, english, mandarin, hindu ).

maybe we can even combine all the major language of malaysia now to form a new MALAYSIAN language.

combining the mix off all of the former.

So to all my Chinese friends,please teach me some Chinese .

My Malay friends, Bahasa Malaysia

and My Indian friend, teach me some Hindi.

at least the vulgar words so i can know if someone is maki-ing me in that languages.

I feel like an idiot

2008-07-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

Physically ,

i'm obese,

i have a BMI of 30. ,

i'm 25 kg overweight,

and my fitness seriously sucks.

Mentally,

I was born with potential,

but i'm so lazy that,

even other people with less talent can

surpass me just because their hard working.

Emotionally,

I've been heartbroken so many times

that i'm planning to live a single life to avoid heartbreaks ever again

although I can't seem to live without loving a girl with all my heart.

Still emo-ing from time to time.

Gaming,

I 've never been able to master a game even though i love to play games so much.

I still keep losing in counterstrike ( even though it's my favourite game)

I suck in dota ( which i only play because no1 plays anything else)

My online games characters never reach " high " level since it takes too long.

Financially

I 'm so poor, even though my family is an above average family.

I hate asking my parents for money because i think i don't deserve it because i'm not working yet ( and i;m kinda of a bad son)

I'm suppose to be easing my parents burden of me with this scholarship i have

but it seems the allowance the sponsors give for living in a CITY is insufficient.

I hate having to call my parents to wire me some extra money so i can eat/buy .

BLOODY HELL COST OF LIVING. if i live in ulu ulu place i wont complain.

SOCIALLY

I have no problem living life alone, although sometimes i do prefer having friends around me.

I try to be a good friend , in fact sometimes i try too hard until people use me and throw me

away after that.

I feel that no one cares about me.

I worry one day if i died , that no one will miss me or remember me.

I'd like to see how many people would miss me but i don't want to die prematurely. yet.

CONCLUSION

i wonder why i still go on... wait. i do know

BECAUSE IT GOES AGAINST MY VERY BEING TO END IT PREMATURELY.

I BELIEVE THAT MY LIFE WILL BECOME BETTER AND ONE DAY I'LL BE ABLE TO SAY FUCK YOU TO THE PROBLEM I HAD, RISED ABOVE THE CHALLEGE LIFE THREW AT ME..

AND BECAUSE I THINK IT'S STUPID TO COMMIT SUICIDE.

I HATE STUPIDITY OF ALL FORMS.( yes, even if it's mine )

ps: just because i mentioned SUICIDE does not mean i'm suicidal.

pps: and yes i know my problems are trivial in nature.

I'm a visual guy?

2008-07-16T00:10:00.002+08:00

Got some more pics in the phone but lazy wan upload .LOL

Physics diffraction grating experiment with helium tube light.

MY Typical messy table in college (ps: bloody fucker who stole my pencil on the specmaths test ..|..)

Guess which one is mine? me and my girls were too bored during ESL lol. sorry Mr.Kevin.

My candid skills !!

On our way we saw a Stall selling rambutans beside a graveyard. wtf? and yeah we bought 6kg of it.

I have no idea where the hell we are. Somewhere near Selangor State Park.

Emo in the river ( posing only la )

River freaking cold but nice LOL

Me , Hani , Zamira and Amal? ( sorry i didnt get your name properly. =P)

Seri and Nabilah

And to further prove my lousy cam whoring skills ( or lack of photogenic-ness) or maybe im just fat. LOL.

here are my failed cam-whoreness for you to laugh / comment about

Aargh SUX. and some which were acceptable ( i guess )

<< Hani said this is nice ?

Maybe i'll stick to taking candid pictures of people ( and perhaps of myself )

My candid skills ROX.

will post more pictures of the picnic by the riverside once i get them from my girls.

Ciaoz.

Funniest 3 minutes in My Place

2008-07-14T22:40:00.002+08:00

No electricity for 3 minutes straight away

So many hooligans shouting about in My place apartments ( my hostel )

and LOL i just found out my house mate was

mistaken for a ghost

since he was jogging wearing all white when the black out happened.

ZzZ so sakai never blackout ka?

try come Sabah la.

LOL

3 hurts in 15mins.

2008-07-14T00:14:00.002+08:00

i've learnt in STE that stress is caused by unfulfilled expectations.

reality and expectation don't always match and will cause stress in someone's life.

well i got 3 hurts in 15 mins. That's a new record even for me.

rejected request

this one night

lovely dream unrealized

again another night

disappointed with a girl.

almost every night

A: I'll still be your friend. Just keep improving

B: I shouldn't expect too much, you're not mine.

C: Is your boyfriend okay with you acting like this? you want to be that kind of person?

D: Guess your lives are your own. I have no right to judge you. Oh well, as long as you don't fuck with my life , i won't fuck with your's.

First

2008-07-07T20:44:00.002+08:00

Hmmmm, obviously i'm procrastinating, why else would i be blogging if i weren't.

Since i'm feeling a bit romantic now after spending the whole day yesterday reading the manga Emma.

Today i've decided to blog about my love life more specifically my first love.

My First crush and girlfriend * drum roll please* ......

"= censored ="

ok ok, i don't think i should write her name her to protect her from the embarrassment of once being my girlfriend LOL.

let me recall what i can about her,

I met her for the first time during form 1.

There i was I was spacing out in front of my class ( in wisma allsaints )before class on the very first day of school ( i guess i was thinking about my future =P or emo-ing ... wadeva la.).

when suddenly i felt a tap on my shoulder, i was snapped back to reality and turned around wanting to see who it was since i don't really have alot of friends yet and you know la 1st day of school, all anxious and all that stuff.

OMG

I thought i must have fallen from the 3rd /2nd floor of the wisma ( not sure which floor edi ) and died because i saw such a pretty face

you know when people say time slows down when stuff like this happens? i swear it happened to me that day.

I must have looked stupid that time because i heard she say something and it took me awhile to realize that she was speaking chinese to me.

(too mesmerize liao and yup i know i'm banana,)

so i told her that i couldn't understand what she was saying and to my horror she and her friend giggled ( yeah she was with another girl and yeah a girl's giggle is scary because it's such a mystery)

she must have seen my worried expression and went on to explain that she was asking me whether i would be joining the chinese classes.

......At that moment i wished i wasn't a banana anymore and wanted to join her LOL.

In the end class was about to start so i had to go.

I wished i could be in the same class as her as i walked into the assigned class.

After a few minutes though, someone came in and joined the class.

OMG

It was her and her friend . WOO HOO!!!!!!

(to be continued)

(edit) ps: no inspiration for now

Things to do when I'm bored

2008-07-04T21:59:00.003+08:00

OK ok,

here we go.

Things to do when I'm bored

Blog?

i know i haven't been blogging much. just can't seem to find inspiration. Let me post some pictures next time

Online games

- I ve seem to have lost my interests in online gaming. Thanks to lack of time , money and friends playing together. not to mention a certain's someone who gave me quite a few bad experience playing with her (more like without her)

Exercising

- need to get in shape before prom so i'll look hot in a suit. Limited to swimming, pumping and lifting weight at the ECA gym. I can't freaking go jogging ( why so many people like jogging?) because my weight will most likely injure my joints.

Eat

- must be the opposite of jogging. Thankfully my lazyness to go down to find food and lack of food material in my apartment has stopped most of these.

Practice my smile

- Must improve my smile as well as body language, very important for EQ ,relationships and presentations u know? Need to practice more though.

Nap

- I've been getting dreams where a girl keep hurting me in my dreams. WTF?!! usually a 30 min nap most of the time. Risks of overnapping .

STUDY

- the most productive thing to do, yet i've kinda lost some motivation gained from STE. I'm reluctant to channel my hate for a certain someone to study. "The Path of the Dark Side, I must not go"

Disturb other people

- Consists of sms-ing, emailing, msn-ing, ym-ing, friendster-ing, facebook-ing, commenting, testimonial-ing with other people for no apparent reason. if i come to you to amuse me , please layan me ok? pity a guy who gets bored damn easily.

Be emo?

- Close the curtains, turn off the lights, play some jiwang (emo) songs and sing to the lyrics. also Insert broken heart music and a expression and attitude which says "fuck off, i'm emo now" Guranteed success emo.

I'm sure i forgoten something. oh well.

FUcking Emo..

2008-06-30T23:22:00.002+08:00

Fucking distracting la

why the fuck am I so emo at sometimes??????

Actually i know why...

but why can't i just stop Emo-ing....?

Of love and hate

2008-06-18T19:57:00.002+08:00

love lasts forever,

hate shouldn't.

love stay hidden but it's there.

hate stand out because it knows it will dissappear.

love forgives,

hate is too lazy to do it.

love is hard,

hate is easy.

could be vice versa ,

depends on who you are.

both are emotions that fuels a desire.

I don't care if mine is love or hate.

Let the desire burn higher

My first Advertisement

2008-06-17T21:04:00.003+08:00

Selling 2nd hand A level books for Taylors University college students.

All welcomed especially for scholar intake 2008.

helping a friend sell A level books. will post book list and pricing once I've gone through all the books.

email me at
leinad_yeo@Hotmail.com (msn/fs/facebook)
leinad_yeo@yahoo.com (yahoo messenger)

procrastinate king

2008-06-15T23:34:00.002+08:00

lose weight~take names~kick academic ass~learn to love properly~complete work~renaissance~LIVE life

Apologies

2008-05-25T21:09:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry for what i did and said

I'm sorry for what i didnt do and didnt say

I'm sorry for the feelings i had, have and will have.

I'm sorry for the things that will happen in the future.

I'm sorry.

Sweet sweet 1 week holiday?

2008-05-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

midyears are finally over, i think i did quite well. hopefully i can get ace results.

gotta kick some academic butts mah.

So now, I'm writing this from KK home!!!!!!!!!!!!

sweet sweet home.

Let's recap my short(?) journey back home from subang.

Physic exam at 8, finished at 10 plus

went to apartment directly after saying goodbye to some friends

couldn't say wish everyone happy holidays since i need to pack.

(I didnt packed yet XD)

Finished packing around 1345, then see some friends.

then met up with Cheng Yah and Lum from J8.

(CY with Lum in the background in the shuttle)

Both of them are JPA scholars in the law stream of SAM.

and Cheng Yah is also another KK-ite like me.

Knew her through some of my 'friends' in J8 and started chatting last year but we only met

in person at center point in KK during the December 07 holidays.

we then met up with Julie of J8 as well for reasons explained later.

We then took a cab from subang to the nearest KTM, then took KTM

to Sentral (+- 45mins), Julie then took her leave as she had to change to another KTM back home to Seremban in Negeri Sembilan.

Me, CY and Lum then went on to take the AirAsia Shuttle to LCCT. (75mins),

(bored as usual)

CY and my flight was at 1820 and we reached the airport with around 2 hours to kill so we decided to eat McD 1st.

Lum actually just tagged along to send CY off at the airport, with reasons I'm not allowed to say or understand at all ( I'm still blur). HAHA.

So then CY and me left KL at around 1830 and CY and me talked non-stop throughout the flight . HAHA.

reached KK around 2100. took our luggage and left the airport. my dad and her mum was there so we went our own way.

So me and my dad decided to go eat. (airasia no in flight food la). so we went to DIAMOND in Luyang area.

we ordered this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Mixed veggie, sweet and sour pork and steamed fish with Thai sauce.)

super delicious!!!!!! reminds me why i love KK food so much!!, we don't get food like this in KL

fish was super fresh!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA

(Aftermath of a hungry growing boy who misses home food)

*note the lack of edible flesh on the fish*

We then went back home and i proceeded to hug everyone who was still awake ( reached home at 0030)

washed up and slept

woke up today and hugged everyone who i didn't hug last night and rehug those who i did.

went futsal at 10 with Joseph, Aaron, Tim, Swenson, Eugene, Shawn, Jimmy , Mark and another guy ( i didn't get his name)

then we had lunch and went to cyber to play COD4.

I got totally owned even though I've been playing in KL as well . LOL

went back home , eat , sleep , eat (omg) and now writing this.

That's it for my 1st day back home then (what a long post?)

Love is a Fallacy

2008-05-20T16:21:00.003+08:00

Love is a Fallacy

by Max Shulman

something i'd stumbled upon thanks to someone in recom

hilariously funny yet scary at the same time, i could imagine myself as the hero. LOL

2nd Thoughts

2008-05-17T10:30:00.004+08:00

Talked with Ai vui.

Shared some problems with her.

Really gave me a different perspective to my own problem.

Now i'm getting headaches thinking about what I should do.

worse. Mid year exams are just a few days away!!!! ( i can't afford to think about anything else)

IELTS

2008-05-16T20:12:00.003+08:00

I got overall band 8

hearing = 9

reading = 9

Writing = 7 :(

Speaking = 7.5 :(:(

I'm still not sure who won.

(edit) i think it was a tie.

More pictures!! (last post without chronological order of pictures~)

2008-05-15T23:51:00.002+08:00

Alyn mengada-ing as usual with my phone

Candid, LOL. i had to do it, Jonathan.

Hopefully Australian Food is always like these.

My "kids" during the MADU sentul project + My partner HANI!!

Ashley,cheerful as ever

I know i'm not suppose to have a favourite "kid"

but this is Syaqizal a.k.a Shin Chan

Mr.Yong - project leader at the MADU Sentul Project

and my physics lecturer , ( cool pic eh? candid as ussual)

Sze Mei, rough diamond, lots of potential to be hot if she wanted to.

(Don't don!!!!! Lenggang lenggang)

Hani Maisarah's BDAY!! on 6th, we had a cake courtesy of her parents

although they were at JB at that time.

Laser for physic's experiment

(it looks like it can kill)

J4 - thanks for letting me gate crash your class party during teacher's day.

sorry~!

Pictures and more pictures

2008-05-15T23:19:00.001+08:00

random-ness

2008-05-11T16:11:00.003+08:00

i need an easier way to upload my pictures...

now that i have my k850i with it's 5 megapixel camera. i've been taking alot of pictures. but sometime's it's too troublesome to post it up.

gosh, mid years are also coming up soon. got to get ready to kick some ass. working hard so i can pwned them. wakaka.

ps: Happy Mother's Day, love you mum.

One vice for another

2008-05-02T16:37:00.003+08:00

Enjoying the view.
It's like watching a work of art. nothing wrong with it.
people watching is fun.
especially pretty girl people watching.
Who better to appreciate physical beauty then a guy who lacks it.
(*damn, she's hot!!! *)

A picture is worth a thousand words

2008-04-27T09:08:00.002+08:00

Top ----> Bottom = Last ----> First

END

2008-04-22T21:53:00.004+08:00

Certain people i thought as my close friends turn out to be bia-tches.

It's the end of the relationship (friendship and other wise)

You killed good Daniel, now you have to live in a world where Evil Daniel exists.

I was fine with beating you all in the future exams, but you had to contact me.I thought you would want to patch things up or end it nicely but you just had to screw me one last time.

You all been treating me like dirt all these while, i let it go because i really wanted to be your friend. but NO MORE, i wont take anymore lies and bullshit from you.

you said you tried to be friends with me, played chess with me/buy me lunch ONCE

well, I tried harder and yet you blame me.

"over-Sensitive,the way you act and the way you talk" were the words you described me and the reasons why you all just can't like me.

you have the nerves to say i don't have good friends, you even question how i am with my best friend.

you have the nerve to say i get worse results than you all,

you dare say that the majority of you all dislike me and it's my fault? and again you blame it on me,

I ask you, what's wrong with me? besides "over-Sensitive,the way i act and the way i talk", all you do is just avoid it and repeat those reasons.

other people are fine with me, and yet you still blame me? look at yourself in the mirror first before you critisize people. look at who you are, look at how far you've fallen.

you say u treasure friendship while in fact you are choosy with who you're friends with. you even treat strangers better than you treat me.

ALL these memories of you , i'll erase from my head, you don't deserved to be remembered. I never want to see or talk to you or your lackeys ever again. I do have to thank you though, you gave me reason to study, to kick your butts academically and show who's the real genius.

*UPDATE* 16 May 2008 : funny post by me when i was angry. I'm moving on now. please ignore this outburst. I'm not usually like this. only act this way when im really emotional

Guess for who?

2008-03-28T04:09:00.002+08:00

before i lose the ability to post comment since i deleted my friendster account, guess its time to write you a comment.

I never bothered to write a proper comment usually, my proper comment usually sounds like an eulogy at the receiver's (or my funeral or sounds like "i'll never see you again" farewell speech...

and now i'm getting confused on whether to write this comment to you or about you.

~to be continued~

OMG

2008-03-22T23:48:00.003+08:00

omg
so busy
so many work
so much things to do
emphasize "much" = used for uncountable nouns.
Aargh
so many goals to achieve in this life

Family dinner~!

2008-03-13T07:57:00.002+08:00

(Started writting 11pm 11th March 2008)

Just came back from christine's place, we had a family reunion/dinner tonight,

Dinner was great, SEAFOOD!!! hahaha, barbequed fish,crabs,sausages, fishballs ,prawns and etc. Nothing in KL could come close to seafood as great as this. I think.

Had a chance to sit round my two greatest cousins and sis, Christine and Joanna. Gosh i missed them so much when i was in KL, what a nice chance to catch up with each other.

Joanna just got her STPM results today (2A,2B+) while Christine came back from National Service this morning (after 3 months in some camp in Selangor)

As usual, the four of us after dinner would find a place away from the adults (parents and aunties and uncles) and just chat away and catch up with each other. We mostly talked about people who Christine met at camp and some other people with all knew

Christine told us all about this one girl she met at camp. Told us that the girl was cheap since the girl had so many boyfriend and very trip in so many aspects (singer,cutie,pro,pretty,etc) which all turned out to be super fake shown during the camp.

That got us to a topic about promiscuous people. Talked about how some girls are so cheap, letting guys touch them or downright letting guys have sex with them easily. It seems that morality in our society has dropped significantly, even though these people are a minority ( i hope) they really give youth in Malaysia/Sabah/World a bad image.

I guess i'm still naive, i had hope that teenagers would still be good till at least 20-21 of age. but in truth is ,there are people in these world who are just like that,

(Sleep)

(continued on 13h March 2008)

I have no inspiration to blog now. hahaha. will continue blog some other day

Home Sweet Home

2008-03-10T14:17:00.002+08:00

I'm home back in KK!!

No General Election,Paintball injuries,Flight delays and heavy rain will ever stop me from coming back home.

Today's monday, i came back on saturday. went to church on sunday and then later sunday evening , i went out with Ritcie. Had a nice time.Shopping and then later dinner at hotel and coffee at Coffee Bean. waakakaka Thanks Bro!!!

I'll post more stuff and pictures later

SAM fiesta.

2008-03-07T00:39:00.001+08:00

SAM fiesta.
thank you to all members for the student council who organized it and the lecturers who helped and to the students who made it fun.
It started a bit slow since some people were being fashionably late so it took about half an hour from the starting time for the MPH to be quite full.

Another problem at the beginning is that SAM students are all conformist, most of the students were too "shy" to stand in the front of the stage. sad to say that the students took sanctuary and the snacks table at the back of the MPH.

Since I was "abandoned" by my friends, I took initiative to stand in the front albeit to the side.
From my experience and the Isaac Asimov books I've read, it doesn't really take a lot to move society, it just need someone to guide or start the trend. After a few minutes and more people came in , is when people started going to the front, or Maybe the snacks just ran out ,HAHAHA

It took awhile for people to loosen up and to get into the mood, people were still holding back , but after awhile everyone loosen up and started dancing and enjoying themselves. including me. HAHA

Tonight was the 1st time I really danced at a party of some sort. at 1st i was a bit reserved, but since i was feeling a bit sad and disappointed that time, i decided , what the heck, might as well dance since I'm already here. Even though i don't know how to dance whatsoever, i just tried to move with the music.(thanks Sarah and the rest of j4) Now I'm inspired to learn how to dance so next time there's an event like this, i can come prepared (hopefully impress someone as well)

Which reminds me of another point, Tonight i learn with example that I must sometimes forget about my problems and just let go and have fun. It doesn't matter what other people think of you when you don't care about it. Sometimes we just have to live life for ourselves and not for other people.

All in all it was a nice event, I'm sure the next event from the student council would be even better, I can't wait.

PS: sad to say i didn't have a camera to take pictures, i'll find someone's picture to upload next time but i doubt they have any picture of me XD

MONDAY

2008-03-03T21:45:00.002+08:00

Mondays are hard for me, especially when I "forgot" to do my homework. BUT i survived!!!

So here's the highlight for today, (might seem pathetic to some people)

I woke up early. HAHAHA , wasn't late to class plus I saw her(which is great) buying breakfast and walking to class.

My previous semester physics teacher (the beautiful and lovely Ms.Khaw) informed me that the paintball event thing is on!!! OMG!! I FINALLY GET TO PLAY PAINTBALL. She said that it will be on Friday after classes. It would cost about RM45 for a starter pack and some more RM to buy additional ammunitions. I'm going to ask Ms.Khaw tomorrow if other classes can join the event and arrange transport. As far as I know, only some J2 and some J4 as well as some of SAM January intake students under Ms.Khaw's tutelage.

I CAN'T WAIT for Friday!!!!!

After classes ended today, I went to the library with hopes of seeing her, but i was disappointed today because I didn't get to meet her today. I think she went back early today or worse!! hiding from me . i hope not

Gosh i feel like a stalker, ever since i got my issue analysis topic from Mr.Kevin my ESL lecturer. (woman as stalker). Not that i am a woman but it seems my behavior while I'm liking "her"are similiar to certain stalker characteristics which are stated in the articles which Mr.Kevin gave us (j2)

I'm sure i forgot something but oh well..

till next time,i'm off to at least "try" to study.

11 Days

2008-03-03T00:03:00.002+08:00

What a tiring 11days.
I've been too busy/stress/angry/emo/sad/plain lazy to post something up here.
so here i am, procrastinating from doing my homework which probably is due tomorrow (i don't remember) or somewhere along this week

Lots of stuff happened since i last posted. Let me try and recall what did i do for the past 11 days

Not in any chronically ordered.(i'll type as i remember it)

www.read2children.blogspot.com
- As usual , I went for the project on Saturday (1/03/08), read more about it at the project's blog, one highlight for that day was that i was able to wake up early (and not delay transport for the whole team) but it rained cats and dogs that morning. I was soaked (even though i had an umbrella) when i walked to college to wait for the van. Me and Hani (my lovely partner) planned something really special for that session but we had to postpone it because of the rain.
- Today's session was ok i guess. Less kids came because of the rain while most of them were a bit late.
- That session I was guiding Shin Chan while Hani took care of Fatiha and Hasna. Seema and Hanifa didn't showed up today.Shin Chan opened up abit more to me today, I'm quite happy about it. He gave me a salam before he left, something he never did before.Fatiha on the other hand kept playfully teasing me and it hurt a bit since i already have low self-esteem (OMG the pain). all i did was playfully ignored her. i plan to ignore her smart remarks from now on and let Hani asks her to stop it (Mr.Yong's idea)
- All in all it was a good session, even though it rained but it didn't really affect us that much.
  - * ~~rain rain go away~~ *

FCC
- I went to FCC on Saturday as well(finally),I didn't went to church for the 2 months since December holidays ended but finally now i went.
- the church moved to a new building, good news it that it's now closer in terms of displacement but in terms of distance (taxi $$) it's further. Plus i don't know where to tell the cab driver to go the next time I'm going
- I didn't really had a good time there because of something that I will write about in the next topic

(I don't know how to describe this next topic*)

1st this starts after the read2children and before i went FCC.
I was just lazing around friendster when i saw someone's comment on another someone's profile page. so i decided to follow up on the comment and after abit of digging, i found some pictures.
Let's say the pictures were beautiful yet painful at the same time. It was the proof of an end and also a new beginning.
It kind of hurt, yet i was happy at the same time.My emotions were a bit mixed up. I didn't know how i felt or what i was suppose to feel about the pictures.
I can't say much detail here, because it's a bit personal and private and confidential.
It's safe to say,i'll survive, i have to, because life will go on, so i'll try not to be left behind grieving. I Wish us all the best in life.

I'll post more later, I want sleep now.

TIred

2008-02-20T01:13:00.002+08:00

Too tired. sleep 1st, study later, and then blog.

2 strikes out of 3

2008-02-17T05:17:00.004+08:00

I'm so exhausted now, look at the time, spent the whole early morning doing laundry.
so let's do this systematically while im still sane.

1st, Valentine's has passed, she got the flowers.
What an akward moment i may say when i met her in the library after class.
I was still trying to find out at that time if she knew it was me(acted like nothing happened), because i didn't sign the card and i had the florist deliver the flowers to her class. Then her roommate came along and teasingly asked me what I did this Valentine's Day, so i was 100% sure by that time that they knew =.='''''.

I do have some regrets for Valentine's, 1st i wish i could have done better, maybe wrote a better card, be more romantic etc etc. The thing i regret the most was not asking her out(OMG!!!!) . I thought she had already made plans for the day. (an outing with friends especially"the" someone she likes), so i didn't want to ruin her nice outing.
I realised too late , that i should have at least tried to ask her, That's something i learnt during Valentine's.

2nd, the day after valentine's i promised my house mates , i would cook them a nice home cooked pasta dinner.I even asked 1 of my fellow Petronas scholar to come and some of my house mate's friend came as well. Little did i know what i was getting myself into. Sad to say the dinner didn't turned out well, because my usual technique of cooking for myself was not applicable when cooking for 10 people (including me)

there was problem after another while i was "cooking" and dinner was delayed for an hour, we served the best of the dishes to the girls 1st. Thanks to my house mates from salvaging the dinner!! and sorry to the girls (guest) who came for what happened, it won't happen again because i'll never cook for more then 2 or 3 people from now on.

so the previous two events were the 2 strikes, while on saturday, it was the 1st session for the reading project i joined. Here's a link: www.read2childen.blogspot.com
we'll soon have a facebook group up and some other things.
goal of the project is to teach or improve the english reading standard of children from the age of 7-12 in Sentul, an area in KL which from i heard isn't a well to do area.

it was a fun time to spend time with kids, knowing each of them have tremendous potential and you are playing a part in teaching them how to be the best they can be in the future.
I won't go into detail here, there'll soon be more post up at the project's blog and at the facebook group. needless to say, i hope we can really make a difference in these children's life.

so that's it for now. its 6 am Sunday, I didn't sleep at all after coming back from the reading project . been doing laundry for the past 4 hours. ( i dun mix colours, afraid they'll stain each other). I'm going to get some rest 1st and later spend the whole day trying to study for the specialist maths test on Monday. It'll be 10% of my internal assessment for my program , which amounts to 5% of my final results.

till next time.

random

2008-02-14T15:57:00.002+08:00

so close yet so far

Another Blog

2008-02-13T23:10:00.001+08:00

since i have an account for www.read2children.blogspot.com
might as well make a new blog here.'
i vow to update this blog at least once a week.
may post more when i'm in a bad mood or just whenever i procrastinating.

this morning i didnt sleep at all watching volume 2 of "Heroes" , awesome story and abilities and characters. I can't wait for Volume 3. I wish i had Hiro Nakamura's power of controlling space and time since i'm always late in the morning. plus the power to control time is kind of unbeatable.

it's almost feb 14th now.
Kinda have a love/hate relationship with Valentine's
love = chance for new beginning
hate = fail / watching other people succeed

i sent someone flowers this year
1st time ever have i sent flowers to someone
Not sure whether it'll turn out alright.
even writing the card was hard.
i just hope she likes it and doesn't hate me

life's been pretty busy lately, tons of assignments, homework, test and presentation
plus i volunteered for read2children and the fact that i want to play online game.

currently playing Ran Online, but i think im going to quit soon, the reason why i play is to be closer friends with Jan, that feeling was from the time i liked her, but it seems she doesn't need me there since she has a Ran "Boyfriend" there, kinda makes me angry to see them.

all she does is show people her friendster profile (super cute girl in RL ) and tons of idiotic male who think by wooing her in game world, they'll get to woo her in real life.

i'm not going to play in a game with so many idiotic people

she enjoys perks beyond control, some people even give her free game points (which cost real money) for her to spend . I myself have to maintain a budget just to have barely enough points.
people give her valuable game items for free, she can always find a party to go leveling (necessary in high levels) while i'm always struggling to find one. I finally realized there's no use for me to keep playing when the only reason i play is non-existent .
*ps; i know im jealous*

from now on, when i play Ran , im going to play for myself at my own pace and not to bother about Jan or trying to catch up to her level anymore, she doesnt really need me.

*i'm always tempted to announce in the game that Jan is not single in real life, but im not evil, just curious what would happen, but because i'm considerate towards Jan, i'll let those idiot's fantasies stand for awhile*

by the way, downloading Perfect World now, going to play after i quit Ran.

I'm kind of in a bad mood now, i'll post more after i finish the rest of my homework tonight.
just realized that writing a blog like this is quite therapeutic for me because now i know where to vent out my feelings.